i use to carry lil notebooks with me everywhere i went. usually filled them with random rubbish of things to remember but usually was used for address and contact info for strangers id never talk too again and friends id always promised id mail letters too then fail so instead mail them a book. they'd be filled with addressees of tons of people who most of which i don't even really know that well or talk to a lot. then there's the few highlighted names of people who i do talk too usually. the other people I'd never talk to tho I'd always debate on weather or not i should keep or toss out. i always kept em tho because of that "just in case" feeling. ya know? maybe I'd talk to them in several weeks or months and what not. keeping in touch with people use to be a major thing about me. maybe we'd be close friends in the future, or something neat would come from it. maybe maybe maybe maybe. "what if".
this morning. i threw em all out. i'm done with it. my desire for communication is basically dead.