espy sat with me today. we talked about things. he scribbled most of it down. i just wanted to ride my bike. espy drank 4 cups of coffee and 8 cups of tea to counter the coffee. he made 10 bathroom trips and smoked his entire pack of cigarettes. i payed attention to everyone walking outside. everything about them felt distorted. faces, tones of voice, movement. the sky pulsed brightness. i basked in it. it was wonderful. espy observed everyone else but saw things i didn't see. or that's how it seemed with him scribbling away in his worn down moleskin notebook.
we sat in silence after awhile. it was just a moment of company. nothing needed to be said. we both new it and went with it. he gave me the rest of his last cup of tea and decided to leave. he looked upset.
"too much on my mind like always" he spoke in a calm voice, "see you later..."
he walked away and vanished under the shade of a tree. i was tired. i wanted to sleep. everything felt swirly. the shade blended beautifully into the light. i was in the center of it all. a hole of shaded light. and whirlpool of sunshine quieting to a whisper.
everyone, everything vanished. it was just me. i heard espy yell for me to move on. it was a good idea. i got up. i fell asleep. everything changed. i woke up new. i woke up somewhere new.

"where was i?"