conversational realizations

RachelHarx (2:16:41 PM): Have you ever had a day where you sat down and really thought about your friendships and whether they were really worth it or not?

dieforpeace (2:18:42 PM): all the time

RachelHarx (2:19:20 PM): Whats your general conclusion?

dieforpeace (2:19:25 PM): a shrug

RachelHarx (2:19:50 PM): That doesn't seem very conclusive at all.

dieforpeace (2:20:08 PM): nope

dieforpeace (2:20:12 PM): im not a conclusive person

dieforpeace (2:20:15 PM): i never get clarity i want

dieforpeace (2:20:18 PM): im always confused

dieforpeace (2:20:23 PM): and always thinking on a subject

dieforpeace (2:20:28 PM): i usually wait it out and see what happens

RachelHarx (2:20:46 PM): Doesn't that just make you the slightest bit miserable?

dieforpeace (2:21:21 PM): very much so

dieforpeace (2:21:23 PM): and i deal with it

dieforpeace (2:21:24 PM): and wait it out

RachelHarx (2:22:14 PM): Does it ever make you feel any better in the long run?

dieforpeace (2:22:22 PM): nope

dieforpeace (2:22:28 PM): i try to not care about the long run

dieforpeace (2:22:35 PM): and just see what happens in the next few hours

RachelHarx (2:23:01 PM): Are you ever really happy?

dieforpeace (2:23:33 PM): sometimes i'm not miserable having fun and laughing and smiling

dieforpeace (2:23:39 PM): i dunno if ive ever been really happy

dieforpeace (2:23:47 PM): i just get my moments of zen and joy

RachelHarx (2:24:14 PM): Are they worth all the waiting?

dieforpeace (2:25:04 PM): a good time is always worth the wait

a book came up to me one evening and asked me what i thought poetry was.
"tis the jabbering of crazy bitter romantics i think. "
"oh" he sighed. "the crazy part must be true cause your talking to a book"
"that must be very true"
then a recruiter for a freak show walked by and saw the book grabbed it and made it become one of its many performers. next to scaled children and bearded ladies.
"hm...maybenot that crazy" i thought.